How can I handle my college life

I do feel very terrible when step at the school in the first time. All I was thinking was how poor the school is, and how long I should stay at here. The first day seems like a war , the war between me and the six-floor-dorm. I was sad and angry for the eight-people’s dorm, even the Elder schoolgirls can feel my emotions. The room is too small to live eight girls, and there only have three bathroom but for 28 girls. I almost collapsed . even though ,I must realized that it was me who choose the school for four years. So I keeping mind that everything were be ok if I calm down and try to adapt there .The fact have prove that is was true.

Though we have a worst start is doesn’t means that we will have the worst end. So what I must think is how to through the four years. I have already made a plan , not for the future but for the passion of learning in the new place. First ,be the headmaster of the class(even I have lost for more than four times ,I also have the passion.) . second, pass the cets-4 exam.(though, I wasn’t so confident after 1

year’s learning).finally ,learned more than four kinds of foreign languages(except the English and Chinese ). After 1 years, the more I think those deals are impossible. The college is totally opposite to the high school that we can thought it in the same way. The college is the place that learn by yourself and learn for yourself. But it do confused me. I always can’t control my self if there have no one told me what I must do or what I can’t do. It almost killing me. I don’t now what can I do and everything I had done finally come out to be wrong. I can’t find myself anymore. When I see someone was study ,I feel losed. I don’t know whether should I study hard like them. But I really don’t want to do that.